Unfaithful-Rihanna
Story of my life
Searching for the right
But it keeps avoiding me
Sorrow in my soul
Cause it seems that wrong
Really loves my company
He's more than a man
And this is more than love
The reason that the sky is blue
The clouds are rolling in
Because I'm gone again
And to him I just be true
And i know that he knows that I'm unfaithful
And it kills him inside
To know that I am happy with some other guy
I can see him dying
I don't want to do this anymore
I don't want to be the reason why
Everytime I walk out the door
I see him die a little more inside
I don't wnat to hurt him anymore
I don't want to take away his life
I don't want to be...
a murderer
I feel it in the air
As I'm doing my hair
preparing for another date
A kiss up on my cheek
As he reluctantly
Asks if I'm going to be out late
I say i won't be long
Just hanging with the girls
A lie i didn't have to tell
Because we both know
Where I'm about to go
And we know it very well
Cause I know that he knows that I'm unfaithful
And it kills him inside
To know that I am happy with some other guy
I cam see him dying
I don't want to do this anymore
I don't want to be the reason why
Evertime I walk out the door
I see him a little more inside
I don't want to hurt him anymore
I don't want to take away his life
I don't want to be...
a murderer
Our love, his trust
I might as well take a gun and put it to his head
Get it ver with
I don't want to do this...
Anymore (anymore)
I don't want to do this anymore
I don't want to be the reason why
Everytime I walk out the door
I see him die a little more inside
I don't want to hurt him anymore
I don't want to take away his life
I don't want to be...
a murderer
you've got a long way to go from 9:17 AM
helos. today i had ncc training. woke up at 6am. went out of home at around 7am. reached school at 8am. i thought i was early but... hehes. i was late instead. okays. so did physical training. then went to 3n2 classroom and did some worksheet and played some games. had fun. khairil was crapping all the way... making everybody laugh. so at around 11.15am we went back to ncc room and fall in.
did some drills. learn somethings new in marching.=) hehes. shall remember the basics which s kanan and kiri. i am not confident with my kanan and kiri. hehes. make a mess in the pusings part. was so embarassing. i am a malay yet i still got it wrong. hahas. but nvm. i shall talk directions in malay. hehes. so did enjoyed myself in ncc training today.~whee~
after dismisal, went to 7eleven then to cdans and mcdonalds. then went back home. so iiam finally home at around 2? yups2. hmms. tomorrow there will be OCS thingy. must be in boon lay by 2.15pm. hmms. will be home at night. and don't think will have any plans on this sunday. maybe i could finish up my homeworks?
next week i will be packed with activities. monday, nothing... study. tuesday, ncc training=). wednesday, house training=) and class gathering at jolene's house=). thursday will be out. friday will be having trainfire(ncc thingy)=). and on saturday!!! DIKIR BARAT SI CILIK COMPETITION!!! will probably be going to the competition. lurve dikir a lot!!! miss those times. hahas.
okays. that is all. if i can find the time to use the computer again at night... i will post another entry. but this is just for now. so take care. bubbyes.
-shikin aka crapstick- ; )
you've got a long way to go from 2:49 PM
helos people. i will not be online the whole day today. have to study. can only use the computer for a while which is now. so... yups. hmms, okays lahh. i got to go. take care. bubbyes.
you've got a long way to go from 9:01 AM
helos. hahas. like i promised just now, i will continue blogging at night. okays. so i went to east coast today. hahas. took 966. tembus here and tembus there and finally, fiza and i reached east coast beach. amira, atiqah, kalzom, zul and some of their classmates were already there. the moment we got there, saw amira holding kalzom who was balancing on roller blades.
fold up my pant. and went to the sands. write a couple of things on the sands that i will loads as soon as atiqah pass it to me. didn't bring my camera because the lovely sister of mine brought it to work. but nvm. so after bored of writing, i decided to go in the water. my pants was a bit wet after a few waves attacked me. hahas. then fiza and atiqah accompany me to the toilet so that i could change into my shorts. hahas. accompany atiqah to mac. she bought a medium twister fries. went back to the place where we placed our bags.
then atiqah and i went into the water. didn't want to get really wet so i just went in till the water level was at the bottom of the t-shirt. but eventually, my t-shirt got wet. hahas. after a few minutes, atiqah went up. i followed behind. hahas. and she was attacked... by us... with flour. hahas. it was her birthday. so had a birthay bash! hahas. we started to throw flour among ourself. i was the lucky one to not get any flour on my t-shirt as much as the others. atiqah then said to me,'shikin, kau belum lagi kena tepung ehks?' with a hand full of flour, she chase me. hahas. i ran like a mad dog. finally, she gave up because the flour on her hand that she tried throwing at me didn't reach my t-shirt.
hahas. then, amira came. she was all so clean. hehes. we were all aiming at her. finally got her. hahas. then zul was ever the first one to throw a handful of flour directly at me. did get my revenge back. hahas. then fiza attacked me by surprise. so after the whole thingy, atiqah and i went in back into the water. she 'rendam' herself in the water to get the flour off. hahas. i can't stand the flour on my face so i went into the water fully, not being bothered if i get my t-shirt wet or not. so went for a "swim" witn atiqah. hahas. after that went cycling... then roller blading. then atiqah and i were off to shower.
after the shower, amira and kalzom went off first as kalzom was late and amira promised to go home with her while atiqah, fiza and i went to mac to buy ourself somethings. okays. walk to the bus stop. and while doing that was crapping. hahas. then waited for the bus. board the bus. get ourself a seat. and sleep. hahas. i didn;t really sleep though. was just closing my eyes and thinking of somethings. hehes. it is a secret. so when reached interchange, it was already 7.10pm. took 900 with fiza and went home. hahas. so that is about it. i think. i wonder what i will be facing or doing later on. shall post again another entry if something thrilling took place. hahas. okays. so for now, that is all. hahas. ouh ya. atiqah and i wanted to see the sunset but fiza wanted to go home. so haishh... i miss the chance to see the wonderful sunset. never seen it before. wonder how nice it is. hahas. okays lahh. gtg. bubbyes. take care.
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you've got a long way to go from 7:58 PM
helos. hahas. sorries about yesterday. found out about something from somewhere and was really feeling down. but thanks to HMMMM and KAK AISHAH for cheering me up and back to my normal self. hahas. really enjoyed the night chatting with the both of them. THANK YOU BOTH VERY MUCH FOR CHEERING ME UP. hahas. so kak aishah and i was crapping and crapping non-stop. it was really fun. hahas. and hmmmm made me smile in a way or another. so hahas. thanks once again.
okays. i shall continue with my story about yesterday. hahas. okays. actually, in the morning i had blog a long entry. i was really frustrated when the page when nutty and just went to another pasge saying that it cannot contact blogger.com. but the worst thing is... my long post is gone!!! errgg!!! spent so much time writing but it just disappeared like that. then i gave up and just log out and got ready to go out.
yups. went to ain's place at first. so she did what she have to and then we went to cwp. did somethings to make time fly. book the tickets for the omen. then went walking again to wait for the movie. 2 hours to wait. so finally it was 5.10pm. went into the cinema. and watched the movie. the movie lasted around 2 hours. okays. hmms. i shall tell a little bit about the story. the story has lots of talking. you have to listen carefully to get the whole story. and it is frustrating at the end. the end is like hanging. maybe there is the omen2? hahas. but it was really frustrating. but there were quite a lot of sudden shocking scenes. hahas. in one of the scenes, i scream on top of my lungs. hahas. so did ain. and so on. we kept placing my jacket at our faces. hahas.
after the movie, we went to my house. at around 8.30, i sent her to the bus-stop under my block. waited for the bus with her. then went home. can't really remember what happened after that. but i can remember clearly what made me feel real down yesterday. hahas. but nvm. i am still surviving. i can live my life. hahas. okays. 'what goes around, comes around.' that i what i believe in... KARMA. so shall not do anything but just shut up and act normal. hahas. okays lahh. i shall end my entry here. shall continue with my entry tonight. bubbyes. take care.
you've got a long way to go from 12:12 PM
helos. helos. helos. hahas. okays. i am officially a family member of the crappie-dummies. hahas. lurve it. but no matter what kasha will still stay in my heart. lurve you two families loads2. and plus my family at home too!! hahas. fiza, you reading? if you are, kak aishah tell me to tell you about this. it is basically like the zoo family but it is the crap family!! hahas. so are you in? okays2. i am crapstick crappie-dunnies. the crappie-dummies behind symbols the surname. hahas. okays. so kak aishah is blur dump crappie-dummies. she changed her name. because she really hates being called hs.
hmms. sorries. i don't feel like blogging anymore. just found out something. so whatever. maybe after i feel a lot better i will continue blogging. maybe soon or tomorrow. okays. byes.
you've got a long way to go from 8:55 PM
helos. today is another day. darkness will soon fill the place. then soon later, the sun will rise and begin of another day. time pass very fast and without notice 1 year will pass and soon you will realise that you are already grown up. hours will just pass by a blink of an eye. time is precious. treasure time when you can. treasure your loved one. treasure the fun time you are having. treasure every single moment that you can because before you know it, it is already over. hours may seem seconds.
wondering i am writing this? a couple of reasons. miss my primary school friends alot2. regret i never treasure the time i had with them when i had it. think that the fun will never end but was totally wrong. at some situations, there isn't a thing like 'there is always tomorrow'. hmms. and there's a few reasons more but i don't think it is a need for me to type it down.
okays. so today was a boring day. nothing much happened. okays so that is it. yesterday night was amazing. something happened at around 9. it was really amazing. hahas. wonder what it is? hahas. let just say its my little secret. watched labu-labi then halfway went for a jog with my sister and her 'tunang'. so reached home at around 12? then took a quick shower and went to sleep. so that is about it. and tomorrow i shall give shameera a visit. a lot of things to tell her. i think she would go excited for me. hahas. i lurve you, shameera!! hahas. thanks for the advise although i didn't actually follow you advise. hehes. =p
and tata too!! you really made me feel a lot better when i was totally down with pain. hahas. lurve you two loads2. hahas. thanks you two!
okays lahh. gtg. take care. bubbyes. *muacckkss* hahas.
<__*shikin*__>
you've got a long way to go from 6:24 PM
helos. mum and dad will be out for a 'jemputan' todae! hahas. was supposed to go but i don't want to. hahas. i don't think i even know the person who is getting married. the person is like my father's younger brother's wife's siblings. so i don't know them. hmms. said to mum that i don't want to go. she was like lookinhg at me and ask 'apa kau nak buat dalam rumah?' hahas. den i answered 'homework, belajar lah.' then she was like 'betul ni?' and i answered 'ah2 lah'
i think i would just make a quick 1-2 hour revision. and try to complete my maths homworks by today. hmms. okays. i guess that is do-able. hahas. okays. i should not sleep! hahas. yesterday, i went to sleep instead of studying. can't help it. hahas.
hmms. ouh ya. yesterday was the first time after a long time that i was on the phone until morning. hahas. the most latest before this was 3. hahas. 3 hours diff. okays. so after that i sleep. then woke up at 10. so only 4 hours of sleep. hahas. this time i did not manage to dream of anything.
i shall go and do something now. so i think i will update later at night. okays. for now, gtg... take care. have a nice day ahead.
<__*shikin*__>
you've got a long way to go from 10:19 AM
baby reza is coming! yay! miss baby reza loads. it has been like 2 months since the last time i saw him. now he already knows how to crawl. how i wish he was my brother instead of my nephew. that would be great and very fun.
okay. i guess today i would not be going out. hmms. will be very bored at home. nothing esle to do except homeworks, houseworks and some practice on english. haishh. now the time is coming to 1. i shall start my studies at 2.
fiza, if you can forget about HL milk, i am sure to do the same for oreo. i dreamt about dm a few days ago. i wonder why i dreamt about dm. hahas. interesting. i didn't remember the whole dream but i only remember seeing dm in the dream. hahas. interesting and funny right? okays. so whatever. ehks, fiza... u still have feeling for AA battery arg? just curious and wondering why you can forget about HL milk so suddenly. hahas. its like you were smiling and real happy when you got to see HL milk the last day of school. so what happened now? care to share.
200 more days to my birthday. counting. hahas. okays. ncc training on the 9th and 13th june. and having ncc stuffs on 10th and 16th of june. yellow house practice and 1e1 class gathering on 14 june. wonder if i can make it to both. okays. i gtg now. both mum n dad start no nag already. bubbyes.
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you've got a long way to go from 9:42 AM
helos. im back home now. went out movie wif tessha ONLY. okies. so wadever. watched over the edge at jurong point. den took bus go home. the movie was okay. was not hw i expect it to be. i expect the movie to be more funny. hahas. but nvm. i tink i just wasnt puttin my fullest attention on the movie. dunnoe where my mind brought me. its either the life of misery or life of fairy tales. hahas.
well, one thing dat i really am tinkin nw is dat... ur frens wun be wif u forever. hahas. even the great memories can perished in a few secs. so... i guess its tyme fer me to move on. ok... wadever.
but one thing is for sure. fer me... my life sux. i hate my life. but nvm. dats all part of life rite? u gt to face everything whether u like it or not. suicide isnt the solution to solvin probs. everyone has thier prob. its like nobody's perfect in diz werld. not even the president. dey too do mistakes, right? hahas.
hmms. i guess dats all. bubbyes. tc.
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you've got a long way to go from 8:54 PM
wondering what's with the whole giving up thing? hahas. it's not a need to know. well, for some people. you may think i'm being pathetic but it's me and you won't know what i am feeling and undergoing. hahas. i am crapping and talking s***s...
lets talk about something else. well, today i am planning to watch the nun with tessha, shameera and ain. tessha is confirmed to go. but ain and shameera... we did not get through them yet. hahas. they must still be sleeping.
shameera!!! thanks for the wallet. really appreciate it. and its nice and pink! hahas. i shall treasure the gift that you gave me. want to why? because that is the only thing that is left from you besides pictures. and ain. thanks for being there and advising me and giving me the time of my life when i am down. and tessha. thanks for your helping hand. really appreciate it. thanks you all. will love you always for eternity.
okays. so i am confirmed going to watch movie with tessha today. hahas. going to catch up with her. i miss her a lot. and ain and shameera and yurni and azra and raudha and of course the others as well. hahas. love you guys a lot2. miss those fun days.
and for my sec school friends... i love you all too!!! beginning to miss you all very much. all the craps and lame jokes. and the kecoh2 too. hahas. fiza. i love you a lot. you should know why. hahas. thanks. wakakakakakas.
i am crazy. hahas. okays lah. gtg. want to chat and siap later. bubbyes. update later at night when free. bubbyes.
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you've got a long way to go from 10:26 AM
i have given up. i have made my choice. and i think i will stick with it until somethings changes. that will make me forget the past and memories. i don't think i want to live in this misery life any longer. i have to change it for my own good. i can't stand the pain. it hurts so much. i guess that's the end. the end of what they call just the beginning. i'm ending a fairy tale without a happy ending and without even starting it. so i guess i have given up on it. so yes. i have given up.
you've got a long way to go from 9:13 PM
helos. hahas. i tink i better start on wif my assesment n hmwks real soon. been goin out almoz everdae n no time fer studies. if im not out, i'll be starin at the comp. hehes. u sud noe wad i mean. so i tink not long frem now, skul will reopen n dat i'll be struggling to finish up my hmwks the night b4. well, dat is wad usually dat happened. hehes.
okies. so todae i wen to skul fer the yellow house trial. i took 100m, 200m n 4x100m. actualli only took 100m den sumone... went to tick my name fer 4x100m. den a member of the yellow house team came to my class n ask the permission to see all teh yellow house team members. den dey started to persuade us to join events. den dey tick fer me the 200m events. so at last... i have 3 events to go fer trial. the results was good. ok lahh... no comments.
after the trial thingy, went home by bus. alighted at cwp. den went to popular. bought sum assesments n went to pet shop to buy my lovely cat supper. hahas. den bought myself an oreo mcflurry. i tot it wud brighten my dae like it used to n the coz... nvm. but it didnt. well, i dun tink anytine can brighten my dae except fer... hahas. nahh... dat will nvr happen. but wadever. so went to shameera's house... omg. hw great it feels to meet her again after a while.
den finally, i reaches home... yay!!! hahas. nw im chattin wif kak ain, studyin n bloggin. hahas. gtg. bubbyes.
NOTE FER ME ONLY:~ yellow house training on 14 june
you've got a long way to go from 3:43 PM
